Lestat Valentine

The Exxxplicit Diary Of An Artist.

A few stills from an upcoming film I’m working on with Bronte - Pain & Poison. 

myotishia:

queerlittlemermaid:

carpeumbra:

klay-ra:

I’m just gonna start preaching this shit.

By John Gever, Senior Editor, MedPage Today

Published: April 30, 2012
Reviewed by Zalman S. Agus, MD; Emeritus Professor, Perelman School of Medicine at the University of Pennsylvania

A mysterious and troubling phenomenon called “visual snow” is a distinct syndrome that does not appear to stem from illicit drug use, a researcher said here. People with visual snow report seeing a mix of swimming dots, flying objects, and trailing shadow images that fill the visual field all the time.

"…It is probably nothing more than an exaggerated type of normal visual function."

Those with the disturbance “tend to be people who are very observant … people who are really hyperobservant of their world. There’s a real controversy as to how much of this is a heightened awareness of normal phenomena,” Friedman said.

He said the visual-snow phenomenon centers on a disturbance described as similar to watching a grainy TV picture. Patients can still see real objects but with tiny black and white dots throughout the visual field.

Another common aspect of the syndrome is that, when patients look at a clear blue sky, they see small white objects zooming around randomly.

A third feature is that moving objects appear to leave trails behind them.

Most but not all respondents saw the zooming white objects in the sky and the trails behind moving objects. More than half, but not necessarily the same half, reported a variety of other effects. These included halos and starbursts surrounding objects, floaters, poor night vision, photosensitivity, and colored swirls and waves when their eyes were closed.

Those with the disturbance “tend to be people who are very observant … people who are really hyperobservant of their world. There’s a real controversy as to how much of this is a heightened awareness of normal phenomena,” Friedman said.

She noted the prevalence of so-called entopic phenomena in Schankin’s sample — the floaters, zooming white objects, and images seen even with closed eyes. Such perceptions usually stem from retinal activation.

"When we have entopic firing from our retina … if you look at the white wall and really focus on it with the right lighting, you can see it," she said. "It’s the same thing with afterimages. It’s normal to see afterimages."

"Most of us pay no attention to it," Friedman continued. "But if you’re a really observant person, you start noticing it, and then you notice it all the time.”

Schankin said that many of the patients were indeed “extremely high functioning.”

I’m so glad this was finally validated.

The doctors said visual snow was only when you saw snow/dots falling. That isn’t what I see. I have this. My weird-eye thing has a name now. I have no words.

I woke up one morning when I was little with this and my half asleep brain told me that these odd little things were ants. I screamed the place down.

Ahhh the dots have a name! I never knew this, and I never knew that it wasn’t a normal thing.

Too ill to get into the studio so I’m doing work at the boyfriends house

Too ill to get into the studio so I’m doing work at the boyfriends house

Studio fun… This might take a while to dry…

Studio fun… This might take a while to dry…

Doing a film thing… Screenshot… I haven’t worked with film in a while…

Doing a film thing… Screenshot… I haven’t worked with film in a while…

"Promises"

"Promises"

This american author wants to use one of my old photographs as a cover for their latest book and I don’t know if I want that to happen… Too much is happening right now… 

The other day I had a conversation with one of my tutors about my dissertation, and he basically told me not to focus on literature and to focus more on art because I’m on an art course and literature apparently isn’t art… This goes against everything I know… He also told me to do the exact opposite of what another tutor told me… Just… Why?

Now I don’t know whether to carry on with what I’ve already got, which is the introduction and about 1500 words of the first chapter, or to start again from scratch… 

tarntino:

i never want to get married and have kids i want to be 40 and a highly successful director and show up to my high school reunion dressed entirely in yves saint laurent with blood red lipstick and louboutin heels that could penetrate a man’s soft flesh in the current year’s bmw convertible and wear chanel sunglasses the entire time even while indoors so i don’t have to hold eye contact with the little people

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vivzie-pop:

theotherwesley:

Me getting up in the morning like 

Hittin’ the keyboard like

Friends comin’ online like



DID YOu SEE tHE THINGg MY GOD

reblogging cause this seems strangely accurate

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